On Your Marks, Get Set.....

I guess "go!" is all that is left?

I always have a problem when I get a new journal. This couldn’t be any truer, but I am a bit neurotic when it comes to finding that safe place to jot down my deepest secrets or biggest wishes. I guess I have always had this feeling that I am being watched, so when I finally do decide to write something in a journal(mind you, I never, ever, write on the first page of any journal-more on that later) I feel like I am always writing it for someone else to read, so in the end, I guess I never have found that safe place in the pages of some gorgeous leather bound intricate journal that I paid too much for and will never actually fill it all the way up, because I have always moved on to a new one at some point, as if changing the cover of my journal changed the outcome of what is in it. I must have at least nine, if not more, journals floating around. Not one of them have I written in to the last page. I have a very low attention span.
So all of that being said-why would someone geared the way I am subject her inspirations, dramas, and goals on the revolutionary break down of society, AKA the World Wide Web? I have no answer for that. Maybe it’s because I can edit the way it looks at any given time? More then anything, I just needed a place to start. I have been trying to be creative lately. Schedule time to be creative? Who does that? I mean, it comes to you when it comes to you. Don’t avoid the obvious desire to create anything! If we did, then there would be a lot of plans out there that never materialized from the cocktail napkin. When I realized how ludicrous this was, I decided this was as good of a starting block as any. Plus it is a perfect spot to get what I am actually moved to create; out in the open. Since I tend to give, sell or lose for some reason everything I have ever done, hopefully this will grow into a decent portfolio. At least it will get me motivated to put down all of the surreal dreams and ideas on something more permanent then my memory!